thoughts

when the real life is just like the drama

y bother to watch from computer?

y not enjoy the live version? ^.^



hope utar has the gossip girl blog...lol

FYP life

The lab used to be a fun place where u can say out loud proudly "I also fail to get results ma. Never mind one la, cincai do enough, report can simply explain and lie de..."

But things change when u r doing final year project. When u get positive results, tis is very lucky. When u get negative result, tis is still very normal. The saddest case is when u fail to get any results. Then ur life will be interesting enough, have to find ways to solve and face the pressure from supervisor and limited resources.

So, here are some pictures taken when we're so boring..haha

part of the samples needed to be extracted

sucking blood

some fail to suck properly so blood full of bubbles

the brand new thing in utar, EZ-vision 3 in 1. Can straightly view gel without staining and destaining. no more the blue loading dye

all time cleaner to separate PCI and bloody tips

tis is wat happen when u have limited resources. Air-dry the gloves to be wear again

caught! the thief in autoclave room

like i told u, the lab is very boring...

some ppl just won't miss any chances to bully ppl with tis slavery contract

some ppl even help to deco the boring lab

no need to caution, not hot at all, keke

this is full of failure-rate extraction

when things start better a bit, the DNA bands start to smile to u instead of linear band (actually DNA smiling is not a good image, hehe)

wanna take pictures in the lab but scare the camera "infected", so sterilize the camera with ethanol spray, swt

bye bye oct!!

so fast October is going to end. And yet the FYP progress only 15% completed T.T

Summary of the whole month
1. Going to uni at 9am and come back at ~5pm every weekday. So called sem break!!
2. 1st two weeks wasted for failing extraction
3. Face blood, blood and more cincao-like blood to extract DNA
4. Run gel, gel and another gelSSS

Tis blog is getting more and more sien although it is already sien.

No fun outings recently so nothing to blog.

I wanna go somewhere to travel ar!!!

Who did tis???

Due to FYP, the lab suddenly become a field of battle.

While head aching about no results obtained after so long time, u still need to take good care of ur things so tat no ppl will steal ur things which are limited resources as well.

The only place to autoclave and cold-storage are really hot spots for the thieves to take action!

KNS those selfish ppl. So good in stealing things then just go to become thieves la... Go to hell!!

!@#$

最近生活被他人搞得乱七八糟

说什么以前自己也有这样的遭遇的鬼话

那既然自己也知道这样会很辛苦又何必再这么对待人家？

说话出尔反尔就算

还要我们差点就违背良心挑战法律

当然那件"挑战的事"算是在我们坚决懦弱的反对下告一段落

可怜我们这几个

有时忍得很辛苦却又得寸进尺

但最终还是要怪自己没胆量反驳一切

就连在这里说出真相的勇气也不敢

另一方面其实也不打算将这一丑陋的事情到处传

只能恨不得快点完成这一切

真的很累了

很想回家

Mess

FYP progress turns out to be too low productivity

A simple thing takes me whole day.

Some even fail and have to redo.

Cant catch up the flow of the project...

And tired of fighting for the apparatus

The selfishness and kiasu-ness of some ppl is really over my dead body

Not to mention the troublesome and endless collecting blood samples progress

Everything is a mess.

Cant burden myself with part time job and English training course anymore

No income so forget bout buying camera and harddisk plan

Concentrate on FYP and exercise my eyes with dramas

Finish it earlier and go back hometown!!

Wishing to finish it before December...can I?

最近...

最近又爱上用中文。因为英文烂表达不出，写的时候总觉少了feeling。也可能因为从小到大读华小，对华文有一种难移的痴情，呵呵。

最近看了身边不少人写古文，再想想自己还自称浸中文水长大，说起来都自行惭愧。古文不行就算了，现代文也很词穷。可能本身想做到不托不欠的境界，毕业后就算老师不受也很慷慨地把学的一切还给老师。词穷又不愿承认，还自称用来用去同字是一种style，厚脸皮算是我值得骄傲的地方。

最近太有空，所以很有闲情慢慢的打中文。汉语拼音像try and error这样，慢慢从字海中捞我想要打的字。我说字海，因为有很多字，都不知有没鼻音翘舌，找到我要的字就好像中大奖了。

最近很喜欢怀旧，很想念中学的死党。想念当初一起旅游的感觉，可能是因为第一次出外看世界，所以特别兴奋。如今，无论跟谁一起旅行，却再也找不回当时的兴奋。是因为同行的人，还是因为自己变了？

最近facebook里，无端端就出现了一些旧照片，连小学的照片也有了。但望着一张张的照片，陌生人多过熟悉的面孔，突然觉得自己的记忆很衰退了。也觉得自己有点冷血，有些人因为从来就不想记得，所以一点印象也没有。

最近的生活太空虚，连出外走走也是一种闷。唱k、看戏、在广场漫无目的地站街，流浪，看靓仔，最后也干脆回家呆算了。明明就有project做，提不起劲做就算了，还口口声声说没事做，我这一种人，就叫做犯贱。

最近的流行歌曲很劲，因为只流行一天就听厌了。旋律不动听，歌词没水准，歌声不感人，但我永远只有毒舌批评。开始听了日歌韩歌，可能因为听不懂在唱什么，所以更耐听。

最近觉得自己一无是处很失败，情绪很起伏。setapak这个地方，给我的感觉除了闷，就是烦，真想一个人去别的地方冷静一下。

最近把一些事看得太清，就是因为假得太真，所以觉得很灰很恶心。究竟还有什么是值得相信？宁愿一切都不知，或许现在会更好过一些。

最近觉得自己很失败。有些错误错了又错不曾反省。就算有了那么一刹那的清醒，然后觉得很辛苦空虚而选择继续迷蒙。

最近课业上面对很大的问题，怎么读都记不得。考试好像是生死战一样，幸运的就会在这里，不幸运的就搬家去金宝看山看湖看牛粪。去向如何就要看平时不上香的神会不会大发慈悲保佑了。

最近很明显，若你问我：“你觉得你是谁？”，我一定没答案。有时最大的陌生人莫过于自己。曾有那么一刹那那么有自信的答案“我不就是我自己咯”不知几时再可以名正言顺的出自我口中。

最近很想替这一个要死不死的部落大装修，文字写不美就算了，如果连背景都不中看，真的就很失败了。