eating snake part 2

here i m again to update blog during internship

today suppose to be the end of the research (it's full of failures, lol)

so tomorrow can hand in the report to my supervisor

but uncertainties occur in the last experiment

and the last experiment is doing on the mice

*imagine tat one is a mouse, haha* feeding them orally

injection to make them feel pain. if u dun hold properly on the neck, they will turn the head and bite u

these r the things i have to do on the mice
shit, it's so cruel
the experiment in fact takes only few hours to complete
but the mice did not show effects after the injection
so the experiment has to be repeated again n again
so many injections of acid were done onto the mice in 2 days
a mistake or if they kick the needle,
the needle might hurt their stomach or any other organs
of coz i'm not the one busy to inject
i'm just busy for watching beside coz dun dare to hold the mice like tat

i know i'm a coward, hehe
the one who afraid should be the mice coz they dunno wat we're injecting into them
imagine u r forced to be injected with sth tat u dunno by others, u wan or not?

hope everything will go smoothly tmr
i dun wan to repeat tis exp again
(precisely dun wan to watch tat again)
feels like i'm a murderer
any researches dealing with mice must be avoided next time

wat deserve human to have the rights to do exp on other creatures?
we develope drugs for human to survive longer
but we shorten the life of these animals before the drugs r declared safe

i murdered a mouse in foundation, but now, mice... T.T

dillema

tomorrow wil be the pc fair

should i buy an external harddisk??
laptop's 80GB is not enough to store series n songs

should i buy a hp memory card??
phone memory only 72MB...

but haiz, recently waste too much of money
petrol, hair, shoes, clothes, vaccination
at least rm1000 is gone...
going to a trip soon [$$$ needed]

external harddisk
Pros: can store series n watch during holidays
Cons: spend like tat just for series??? haiz

substitute with pendrive??
Pros: reduce burden of my laptop
Cons 1: not enough to store all d songs, cant even store series
Cons 2: takes long time to scan viruses (tat's y still using 128mb, hehe)

another option is on9 streaming n watch dvd during holidays

hp memory card
Pros: can store many songs n pictures (so can listen to songs anytime)
Cons 1: got a mp4 player edi but battery cant last long
Cons 2: always forget to take photos til after the events..

haiz...haiz....haiz...

birthday over d...no such presents *hehe*
(thanks for ur wishes ^^)

now wait christmas
but economy recession guess santa also wan save to money
too bad my intern dun have salary

perhaps get them next time??
life goes on without them..keke

"memorable" day

Case 1:
I’m woken up by hp at 2am though I set it to silent mode. A stranger called, so I left it to ring. Later the stranger sms me “Awat ang berlagak sangat la”. I dunno wat is “awat ang” but the main point is I wu duan duan scolded lansi. Ok, so I’m lansi.

Consequence:
Tis stupid call caused me to stay awake for nearly one hour before sleeping again, shit. I just hate ppl disturb me when I’m sleeping.

Lesson:
must turn off hp be4 sleeping next time

Case 2:
A part of my fingernail of middle finger was scraped off in attempts to open a tin. Urgh.

Consequence:
it hurts!

Lesson:
must not b lazy to cut fingernails every week liao

Case 3:
My exp went very bad today, esp when streaking the bacteria. Cant find a lighter to light up Bunsen burner, cant find suitable wire loop (the wire r ~5cm long, my skills cannot contro it)

Consequence:
I beg for a lighter everywhere. In the end, I did “agar-carving” instead of plate streaking.

Lesson:
should buy my own lighter coz none of the officers have it =.=

Case 4:
(the best of the day. My fren said he wan to spread it, so I decided to say out myself be4 ppl add oil and vinegar into the story)
I was locked in the toilet for 10 minutes T.T. I called my sis (who later only called me back ask me wat happen) n my fren. n I’m worried tat time my hp will b turned off anytime coz battery low d. 2 of them still cannot open the door from outside. So they ask another uncle, luckily the uncle managed to open the door. The uncle even explained to me the door is locked because of different pressure coz strong air-con wind is blowing outside the door, swt. Yes, Bernoulli principle, fast moving air cause air pressure low. I cant believe I still remember tat principle, lol.

Consequence:
prepare to be laughed by ppl as my fren said wan to spread it.

Lesson:
must not lazy to bring n charge my hp anywhere I go, lol

P/S: I forget to take the photos of the locked door and the ceiling. There were ppl when I walked back wan to take photos, so sia sui, so dun wan to take photos liao. Haha.

铁克

被kL铁克了，没让我知道幸亏我有浏览他的部落格（忠实读者嘛，哈哈）

这个tag的规则：
1.each blogger must post this rules
2. each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves
3. blogger that are tagged need write about their own blog their ten things and post these rules . you need to choose ten（or five） people to get tagged and list their names .
4. don`t forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .
5. (added by me) no tag back

我的10个facts/habits？

1. 懒惰
2. 爱睡
3. 烂赌
4. 没听歌上网就要生要死
5. 死要脸
6. 想唱k（ahkee，我等你等到花儿也谢了~）
7. 不吃不眠看连续剧
8. 看恐怖片/鬼片一定掩眼看
9. 蛇/名字有蛇就怕，最近被四脚蛇吓到，看到壁虎想到四脚蛇，T.T
10. 讲话气人为乐

说真的，铁克这个名字还够怪够难听，哈哈。
铁克10个或5个？我下不了决定咯，就7.5个啦，呵呵。
我铁克的那半个人是kL，哈哈，你就写多五个啦。你的规则没写 “no tag back”，哈哈。
剩下的七个，善良善解的我就不点名了，想做的人就做咯，感恩 XD

my computer is sick

i think my computer is infected with spyware. not i think, is i'm sure T.T

if wu duan duan receive email from myself (tis reminds me of one-missed-call*scary*), if homepage wu duan duan change, if my IE7 suddenly "downgrade" to IE6 interface, and with some weird settings tat cause my IE cant function "normally", if tat is not kena spyware then wat else? (i hope somebody tell me tat i think too much, tat's not spyware =S) i email myself and change it during sleepwalking??

i wont upload or change any photos in friendster or facebook til i go back to kl, neither do posting any bulletins or messages in friendster or facebook, so if u guys see i post anything weird in friendster or facebook, pls tell me coz i dunno wat else the hacker do on my computer, thx. same goes to my msn acc, i seldom put my own picture one (dun wan to scare u all ma, lol) and pls dun click any links i sent u.

also, i'm currently using dial up connection, so it's impossible i'll ask u to open ur webcam. and with tis tortoise-speed internet, i'll not on9 more than 2 hours. i'm quite scare the hacker will use my msn account to chat with frens which happened to my sis's fren be4, so if u miss me too much wan to chat with me but scare, ask me the things tat u think only me n u know to verify tat is me ;P

being a pure computer idiot who only know how to "murder" computer, i dunno how to cure my computer now. i'm thinking of changing all the passwords of emails or mayb even the emails 1st, but so ma huan, n i'm kinda lazy...so it takes times XD

the window installation disc is in kl, so forget about formatting my computer (in fact also no ppl can help me to format now, haiz). n i think formatting wont help coz it hacks my emails on the internet rite? correct me if i'm wrong. but my homepage and internet setting are also changed, wat happen actually and how to solve? i dunno these stuffs at all T.T

dun tell me have to change emails as well as formatting computer, wan my life meh?

i'm still trying to get the anti spyware softwares installers. n the "good" news is i dunno wat softwares can b used, so need to ask ppl 1st (so pity, no one choi me). with this stupid connection, how to download installer from the internet, wtf. my mcafee can only scan for viruses, so die lo.

sorry for any troubles if u sui sui kena "me" disturbing u. i'll pray hard for u all, and also myself, sigh. n for the hacker, thank u for being so "xiao zhang" changing tis changing tat in my computer and send a "notification email" til a computer idiot like me know it's the "jie zuo" of hacker =.=

eating snake

haha, eating snakes now (translate to hokkien)
i'm suppose having training now
but apparently i cant live without internet
so i come to on9, lol

a person so hardworking like me can eat snake?? XD

actually is my experiments fail liao, haiz
it feels sad esp when u wait for hours for filtration then it's wrong T.T
follow the protocols already
i dunno y it fails but it really fail
the volume of extraction obtained is much lesser than expected
n according to some seniors the 1st product i obtain is already wrong
it shouldn't be in liquid form after the concentrating porcess?
but i cant help if it wans to be in liquid form >.<
omg, can anyone tell me why?
mayb i should ignore wat the seniors said, lol

lessons from the experiments
-follow protocols may get wrong results
-filtration very waste time, need to come to on9 while waiting
-leaves can be very kiam siap sometimes (esp when u wan to extract them)
-life is easier when u ignore wat others say
-将错就错 / 即错之，则安之 are very good motivations
-dry leaves and plant extractions are very bad smell

few days of holidays...

i like holidays...
thanks to deepavali
thanks to saturday n sunday
haha, thanks to another "bonus "day of holiday
so 4 days of holidays, wakaka


but i still cant sleep well during the holidays
my house is full of babies crying sound and relatives talking hakka loudly
n i dun understand hakka >.<
my cousin marriege's sunday was on sunday
(i live with her for more than 10 years, so can say is my sis XD)
since there's a professional photographer there taking photos
i feel very paisei to take out my camera phone to take photos
so no photos of the dinner from me...haha


but my cousins n i quite fed up with some conversations


"ting, where u study now? study wat?"
"UTAR, biotech"
"ooo..setapak rite? xxx also study there ma..accounting..."
"nono, tat one is KTAR, UTAR not same with KTAR, UTAR is university"
"shi meh? in setapak ma...not KTAR meh?"
"setapak got KTAR n UTAR, UTAR is just beside KTAR"
"ooo..i never heard of UTAR"
"............."
"now 1st year la?"
"no, 2nd year liao.."
"huh??? so fast meh? u still look like a ginna (child)"
"*speechless*hehe...short ma"
"wah, u thin a lot hor, keep fit ar?"
"*speechless*no la, i eat a lot one, the food there all big size de"
"shi meh? i thought u wan to save money dun buy food"
"........................................."
"then now u holiday la?" when open school?"
"yaya, holiday...next january only open school liao"
"wah..holiday so long ar"
"yaya, 3 months ma"
"wah, really long lo...din do anything meh?"
"got training lo"
"ooo...so fast train de meh? train where?"
"xxxxxxxxx"
"oo..do wat?"
"*speechless* training la, do research like tat"
"oooo, good lo good lo. got money de?"
"no"
"huh? no money de? then ma do buta-buta, hao siao eh"
"............................"


(be4 tat say training good lo good lo, once hear no money become like tat =.=")


then my cousin kena

"where u work now?"
"singapore"
"oooo...wah singapore good lo! where u work?"
"xxxxx company"
"work as wat?"
"engineer la, i study engineering ma"
"ooo...wat ur job is about?"
"*speechless* my job very complicated lo. dunno how to say"
"huh? u do wat u dunno how to say ur job de meh?"
"*dunno how to say to u"
another cousin:"say liao u also dun understand, so really dunno how to say to u"
"haiyo, u haven tell me how u know i wont understand, u say liao mayb i can understand leh"
".........................................................."


n for ur information, the conversation above has been repeated many times to different ppl
how i wish can record them then play them whenever there's ppl asking me same thing


other than holidays, actually i like the 1 hour lunch break de
i always try to eat asap so tat i can come to on9, haha



so i received tis email AGAIN!
i have to emphasize the word "AGAIN"
coz i receive it more than 10 times for the last few YEARS.
(mayb even more coz i still have many unread mails, haha)

when i read tis mail, i'm very pekcek (sorry, i dun mean to offense anyone)
it's really annoying...
from the mail, it claims tat it's not a prank n ask readers to go to http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/business/1189119.stm
as a prove tat the news is real..

i always ignore tis email until today
i opened the link stated in the mail
wtf, the news is written in 2001 =.="
n i found another news written in 2006 commenting on that news
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/business/4778046.stm
it has been CLARIFIED as a prank since 2006
now is 2008, 2009 soon
n i still receive tis email =.=

14th Oct

Happy Birthday Shin Leong! it has been one and a half year since you left.

Above sentences is taken from william.

*I'm so sorry n regret for not coming back to sp on 9/3/07*

*Sorry for not being a good fren...*

tagged + a little update

First of all, thanks KL for tagging me. tis is the 1st time I thank ppl for tagging me =.=
But tis tag is really different with other tags. It’s really hard to do coz I din know which habits of mine r weird for others, haha

RULE: Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits / things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG backs!
(10 ppl really too much la wei…)

1. I dun live with my parents and sisters until now
2. I’m a big fans of chocolates n orange. So I always buy drinks and biscuits with chocolate or orange flavor.
3. I always like to bully insects n small small animals (max lizard size, lol) but scare when dogs n cats (even the small cute dogs) come near me. However, I scare snakes the most becoz of the close encounter with a poisonous snake when I was small.
4. I always imagine the weird weird n kinda unrealistic things in my head. So dun b shock when u see me suddenly laughing alone.
5. I always like to sing n draw. N I’m so “honour” tat my singing (念经) n drawings skills (画符) can be used to scare ghosts, keke
6. I like to stay up alone until very late no matter I have things to do or not coz I like the cold night n the silence n I really hate to wake up early. Tat’s y I’m very lazy to go for the industrial training now, hehe.
7. I once owned a cactus (which should b very easy to take care) but it died becoz too much of watering, hehe. Let’s imagine a cactus with a trunk as soft as a plastic bag filled with water, so tat is my dead cactus =.=
8. I always wan to try to watch movie in the cinema in the midnight n also sing k til the next morning.
9. I like to kap leng zai, hehe.
10. I dun like to talk when I’m tired or busy or when in bad mood. Tat’s y can say I’m so noisy in the campus but will become so silent when I’m back to house. Sometimes I can din say a word for the whole day in the weekend, hehe
11. I always wan to try to race car. (but I think my skills can only support for 60km/h, haha)
12. I like shopping alone n also always cam-whoring..hehe
13. I get my driving license since feb 2006, but til now I still dunno how to park a car, unless there’s no parking line, then I can simply park, haha
14. I like to play tingting but lack of time, skills n financial support, XD
15. I think tat tag is very wuliao but since I’m an extremely wuliao person, I always answer them all with 100% hardwork, haha

My victims: Viv, Greg, william, vien, mok, nixxie, Jacq, kiki, hy, amy

(haha, I know they will ignore tis tag also. But since I said I’ll do tis tag with 100% hardwork, I still write 10 ppl names, XD)

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so, tat's end of 1 week of my industrial training, 10 weeks or 50 days left. i really dunno how to describe tat actually. i waste the 1st 2 days sitting there waiting spider web. my supervisor was on leave so i got nothing to do. other officers ask me to WAIT A WHILE but left me waiting for few hours. few hours later they will come to me n say:" sorry, pls wait for another moment." i was bored to maximum but i have to smile to them and say "take ur time". =.= so their "another moment" takes me another few hours, in the end they finally ask me to do things which actually can be finished in 15 minutes (mayb i'm too efficient, keke). n the second day, i thought meeting with my supervisor will finally have sth to do, but the meeting is nothing but just to show face and said will only give me things to do on the next day. tat time one minutes seem one hour for me. industrial training trains nothing but my patience....

for the 3rd days onwards, i received a project, which is join other ppl final year project. the project is about doing research on plants crude extracts to determine whether they possess antimicrovial, analgesic and anticancer activity. i will be doing on the papaya and kunyit leaves. the project sounds interesting to me at 1st. but then comes another bad news. i have to write a proposal of the project in one week. of coz internet sources cant be used, so i have to look out for related journals in the library myself. i dun mind reading the boring journals for long time but cant understand them in the end, but wat kill me is the process of finding the related journals from journals books n megazine. the percentage of getting the related journals is less than 1%, can say is harder than kena lottery =.=

so from 3rd day to 5th day, i spend my time in the library except lunch break and doing the experiments (which is actually take 2 hours only). on thursday i even spend 7 hours in the library (FYI, my working hour is 8 hours). my groupmates thought i'm a veryveryvery hardworking person coz whenever they wanna find me, i'm in the library. n it's really funny coz in utar, it's kinda a miracle for me to step into the library other than to read the newspaper or to photostat, lol.

n their insufficient apparatus tat slow down the process of the project really pissed me off. n their suggestion on alternative solutions is lagi geng, coz actually to extract the leaves using the apparatus takes 2 days, but if use their suggestion to extract, it takes at least 3 MONTHS! omg, tat time i already finish training la. i dun mind it if u do the report for me. how m i going to write a report? go to observe the leaves everyday just to wait to get the extracts???

reading journals is really boring tat i always sms to my frens asking how's their industrial training. haha, n it's kinda shocked me to receive some frens sms saying tat they're also boring coz nothing to do, only a few din reply me coz too busy. i get to know some ppl go there just showing faces, or bring their own laptop, ipod or story books to spend time there. n my way of spend time is by sms and cam-whoring XD. but on friday, i finally come to know tat their computer lab do not require password to login, n tat's really such a GREAT news to me. so i on9 with reasons tat i wanna find on9 journals, but i end up chatting with fren who is actually having training at tat time, haha. n FYI, i haven get my pas due to the great efficiency of HR department, i'm actually an intruder into their library and computer by using my fren id, haha.

so tat's wat i have been doing during my week 1 of my industrial training. thx to them, i crack my head just to write the proposal (coz it's beyond my ability since i dun understand the journals) as well as my weekly report (coz i mostly doing nothing or just drowning in the sea of journals or pretend i'm busy but actually sleeping or on9 chatting or sms or cam-whoring, haha)

nonsense

i got sth very important to announce...
very important
tat is....

actually i'm still alive de...kekeke

i disappear from internet too long time edi
so i know some ppl will miss me so much
esp for the ppl who find me to chat once i on9, hahaha
tat's y i make tis announcement

been busy travelling within malaysia since after exam
PLUS earn so much money from me
genting is such a boring place for me now
unless got ppl willing to sponsor me to play the tingting, hehe
since i'm too young, i still cant enter casino...
somemore genting should provide free wireless for the employees
so tat i can tumpang the line...hehe

for the tzu chi camp, it's not bad de...
the ppl there r really friendly
if can add more games then it will be better
but no matter wat, it will b veryveryvery perfect if the girls dun have to tie up 2 "bian zi"
yala, act cute is not my style ma, kekeke...
n tat time i swear it will be the 1st n last time i tie up my hair like tat.... XD

for the one day trip in malacca
i sia sui again to say tat
"last time learn in history a MOUSE kick a TIGER into sungai melaka"
the trip is not bad,
just tat most of the food stores tat piang recommend r closed
somemore the cc n pool start closing at 1am...omg...so early
for me tat time the night is just begin...haha
n sing k sing til half can "hang gei" 1...not bad
but really thank u piang n his family 感恩，哈哈

central square is still the same, nothing change much
still is the "paradise" of sin min ppl coz can see many sin min ppl hanging around

tmr will b the 1st day of my industrial training
really lazy to go there leh...
somemore have to wake up so early
not yet holiday enough....
til now i still dunno wat's my job
but i already can imagine the job roughly are
washing the apparatus after ppl using them;
helping ppl do the printing job;
sweeping the floor of the lab;
watering the plants;
so in conclusion....KULI tat is FOC..hahhaa

here is another announcement for the ppl who will miss me
i will disappear from internet until next year january 12,
unless u willing to sponsor me streamyx to use
in return i will give u jay songs....from the 1st album to the latest..
n also my latest photos....hahhahaha (the internet now not yet fast enough to upload photos)
cant wait it's 20 dec now, hahhaha
also cant wait to meet my best fren...souvenirSSSS pls...keke, THANK YOU~

Kreativ Award

yeah, finish exam today n here come my lovely n long-waited 3 months holiday. but i have to admit tat there's nothing to celebrate as i've totally screwed up two papers. n the today's paper, one work for tat, creative!

tat is y i think a creative award shoud b given to my respectful Dr. Teh, whose questions shocked most of us during the exam n spent most of the time looking at the questions n analyzing them but fail to write anything. if i'm creative enough, i will understand wat she wants...but too bad, i'm not..

tat is y i've been awarded by kL as a Kreativ blogger but not a creative or kreatif blogger, haha, but anyway thanks a lot.

here is wat i get from the reward...

dang dang dang....

a picture with the KREATIV blogger words. yeah, the "founder" of the photo must b very creative enough to create a new word "Kreativ". *thumbs up!*

yeah, a picture. nothing else, hehe. kL, can i change the reward to free-steamboat??? thank you~ XD

the rules of getting the reward:
1. The winner may put the logo on his or her blog.
2. Put a link to the person you got the award from.
3. Nominate 5 blogs.
4. Put links to the blogs.
5. Leave a message for your nominees

So now i'm going to nominate
1. Viv
2. Nixxie
3. william
4. Jacquelyn
5. Greg

congratulation to the ppl above. no need to thank me actually, u can belanja me makan or help me to pay for my rental for one month if u wan to thank me, haha.

kL, i think u actually deserved the kreatif award de, but give chance to others la (hmm, u know i'm very seldom praise ppl de, u can express ur appreciation for my praise by considering changing the picture to free-steamboat as reward, hehe).

n if Dr. Teh is a blogger, i sure will reward her too without any doubts T.T

P/S: really tired now after the torturing 3 weeks. but after the today's paper, some ppl say we should start searching for houses in Kampar for next year. yeah, mayb i should give deep consideration bout tat suggestion. but all i wanna do now is watching drama n sleeping...wakaka...

中秋

不少朋友祝贺我中秋节
我才知道原来今天是中秋节，哈哈
但今年还真的“够意思”
清明没扫墓，端午没肉粽，中秋没月饼
而且全部日子都不在家
别人说我为何在大马读书，但甚少回家
为何在外国的朋友亲戚回家日子比我还多
我也不知，从一月到现在，我只回过家一个星期多
那就要感谢utar了
时间表吃大便，功课多到压死人，假期又死鬼少过人
还好新年还有回家几天，
不然可能连红包都没有，哈哈
还好，我有三个月假期（如果industrial training也算假期）可以在家，呵呵

P/S: fall in love with "Mary Jane" by the click five. love the lyrics as well. hy, thanks for the recommendation...^^

click five mp3 - click five videos

Song Lyrics | Click Five lyrics

阿飘？

i prefer to use 阿飘 to refer to 'them' la...hehe

tis is taken from the forwarded email...
according to the email, it's taken in Pillar F15 in mid valley
if one day anyone going there, try taking pictures there..haha

click on the picture to enlarge

See it? not look at the leng loi there..haha...the main point is at the tiang behind there...but after observing, hehe, i found tat it seems a bit fake coz
1. it really look like a statue or patung
2. it seems very heavy, i wonder how "the thing" can float, hehe
3. got feet (haha, ppl say 阿飘 dun have feet)
4. got shadow (haha, once again, ppl say 阿飘 dun have shadow)

y its clothes so weird de? y it wants to stand there leh? y its pose is so similar with the lengloi in the picture? y is there someone so free take photos in car park? if wan to take the photo of the girl, can say it's really lame skills, wakaka. somemore y is it the lengloi standing there? jaga car park? wakaka

haha, ignore me, i think too much...but the lengloi in the photo really popular lo, many ppl receive n forward tis email be4 XD

tis is the printscreen mv of fish leong 梁静如 如果能在一起

click on the picture to enlarge

see the man at the right side there?

阿飘theory:
1. the man seem like only "upper half"
2. according to the director, the scene is cleared when filming

but, mayb it's a way of promoting the singer. in fact, the figure really look like a normal human wearing green/blue shirt n seem like got a black spot under him, will tat be the shadow? XD n the action of bending the hand of him is really human-like. haha, watever...mayb the 阿飘 is a fans of fish leong...wakaka

for better view, pls go to see 梁静如 如果能在一起 mv urself..it's at 0.22 seconds

if anyone of u is brave enough, try going there n take pictures la, hehe. i give u my 100% support here, yup, here ONLY. go taking tis kind of pictures better u go alone de...hehe

P/S: wat the crap for the paper just now??? y is it so big difference with the past year questions? KNS!!!! i hope i can pass it, no kidding. sick of hearing "aiya, u can de la, say only", r u me??? dunno how to do means dunno la. i wont take tis kind of things to joke k? =.=

........ + Tagged

study week: fever + headache ("luckily" just beginning of study week)

yesterday : headache ("luckily" i still able to tahan n swallow biochem)

today : flu

always so "lucky" to fall sick approaching n during exam period

hehe, fever n headache r kinda small case for me as i'm used to them, somemore after sleeping for whole day sure will feel better wan.

but for the shit flu i cant breathe then i cant sleep long and cant concentrate to study also...

really hard for me to breathe using mouth as the mouth is used to yawn (management ma, works better than sleeping pills~), haha

i just wan to breathe~ haiz
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P/S: found the blog of the lecturer taught me be4 in foundation

shock for a moment coz
1. use chinese (thought the lecturer is a banana, hehe)
2. some posts kinda funny (thought the lecturer is a serious person)
3. the way of cursing.... (i have to learn to curse like tis too)


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I hav been tagged by KL long long time ago. (hehe, i'm lazy to answer, but since now not in the mood to study...i do it...wakaka)

1.what is your fav chocolate?
watever chocolate i also like

2.what is your 3 fav colour?
blue, black & white

3.who is the last person u talked to?
onn sein

4.who is the last person u msged?
ce yan

5.who was the first person u talked to when u woke up today?
forget edi...mayb is the uncle tat sell mixed rice, hehe

6.who is the first person u msged when u woke up today?
huey yee

7.how many msges u recieved when u woke up today?
1

8.who msged you when u woke up today?
maxis, lol

9.who do u wanna talk to now?
i cant breathe, so no mood to talk

10.who do u wanna see right now?
周公

11.what are u doing now?
blogging la =.="

12.what colour shirt are u wearing now?
black

13.are u attached?
no

14.who do u like?
myself

15.what phone are u using?
Sony ericsson k550i

16.how much money do u have in ur wallet now?
lazy to count

17.if u can choose to do something now. what would u do?
finish study n memorize the management, if can principles of biotech, physiology n microbiology also....hehe

18.how are u feeling now?
feeling not good coz i cant breathe!

19.what is the 3 things u want to forget?
1. the feelings of cannot breathe (suffer la T.T)
2. my laptop's performance which getting lousy (pekcek everytime think about it)
3. the urge to watch dramas (not enough time to study but still wan to watch)

20.what is next to you?
books n notes

21.last show u watched?
Wall.E

22.do u have pets?
no

23.what do u feel like eating now?
nothing. i'm having flu n eat anything also tasteless

24.Two things you are wearing right now
1. black T-shirt
2. black pants

25.Two things you want very badly at the moment
1. recover from flu
2. increase brain capacity

26.Two things you did last night just before bed
1. swallow biochem
2. switch on the fan n sleep

27.Two things you ate today
1. rice
2. bread

28.Two people you just spoke with
1. shu vien
2. onn sein

29.Two things you are doing tomorrow
1. study n memorize management
2. eat n sleep

30.Two longest car rides
1. johor
2. terengganu

31.Two favourite beverages
1. ribenna
2. chocolate drinks

who are the 7 people u tag?
since i'm so good, i dun wan to bother and suffer others, especially during exam period...u wan to do then do lo...

Putrajaya + Wisma MCA

Two days ago, aka Friday, went to putrajaya to see fireworks performed by Australia. The class ended at 9am, but waited for 5 hours until 3pm in school just for the bus....

Then, reached Alamanda shopping complex at around 4pm..... Since there's nothing to shop...luckily there's still a bowling center, so piang, jeff, jynn, yong yong n me went bowling. my performance is not bad in the beginning...but thanks to jynn who claims tat shouldn't lose to gals n curse me to wash drain..after tat i really pay Rm6 to wash drain...so in the end i lose to him around 10 marks....(actually i purposely lose to him de...give them face ma...wakaka)

then, we went to McD, planning to buy burgers as dinner in Putrajaya International Conventional Center (PICC), but thanks to the waiter, he's more blur than me. He gave us the french fries n cokes only n told us "enjoy ur meals"...n when we asked burgers from him, he said he gave us all edi...swt. since we're rushing to the bus, we din count the burgers he gave us later...n we din get enough burgers although we've paid for them...ok~ watever, nothing can b done....

so we reached PICC at around 6pm...obviously we have to wait another 4 hours for the fireworks. having our photo sessions with the clowns while waiting (photos r not with me). then we booked the "feng shui" places to see the fireworks at 7pm. many ppl went down the grassy slope so that they can sit while waiting. but me n some frens choose to stand coz scare it will be raining, so we waited, sharing lame jokes, playing games, din aware that the feng shui places we booked is slowly intruded by some ppl tat never learn "queue up" tis term. luckily still got enough places for all of us to stand in the 1st row when the show started....

we thought the show will start at 9.30pm but we only see "helicopter shows" flying to n fro aimlessly....mayb it wan to make sure the sky dun have birds flying around so tat they will not get burned by the fireworks... keke. So the show finally started at around 10.10pm....

Haha, obviously, these photos r taken from others, my 2.0MP cam-phone for sure only manage to take the photos of the smokes, lol.
for more photos, do visit http://psytiphic.blogspot.com/ and http://photo-utar.blogspot.com/
the fireworks last for 20-30 minutes...then we took another 2+ hours to go back to genting klang due to traffic jam...
so overall, the day will be more perfect without waiting....

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Yesterday aka Saturday, went to Wisma MCA to sell flowers to earn money for society..but too bad, see the money go into society but hard to take them out to use...

waited for ppl wait until spider web come out n cause me late to there....

having difficulties to recognize the type of flowers in the beginning...which make other ppl beside me a bit swt...haha

whole day seeing ppl laughing happily but i stood until my legs r in pain (coz i've been standing since friday for hours) *tortured* but gotta thank my secondary school which train my "standing-stamina" for hours every assembly for 5 years...tat's y my legs can tahan standing for 2 days..

the bears r very cute but very expensive...cannot afford so just can take the pictures

rm20 for smaller bears n rm35 for bigger a bit bears...worth it?

Some of the flowers...

At last all the flowers r sold, just left 2 RM60 mashimaro n 1 RM100 mashimaro...it's really hard to believe ppl will buy the RM100 mashimaro la...

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So the 1st two days of my study weeks just gone like tat...n today, i'm having headache n sore throat again...mayb caused by the 2 tiring days, so din really study anything. so, how to study n memorize the 14 weeks lectures of 5 subjects in a week?

Talipon

Last wednesday, hann, chee shin, yong yong n me went to Talipon although it's raining heavily. Becoz of the rain and we have to walk back after eating, Voon Chai put us aeroplane and is known as Flight A417 now, keke.

Y r we seem so desperate to go therem although raining? lol, gotta thank to Dr. Wong who r so honest to us, claiming tat we will still dunno how to do although got tips (esp 12 marks calculation, it still hurts me now, T.T). So, we wan to cure the disappointment by eating. Hehe, all of us just realize we r so persevere tat time...

Lame skills in bbq...who???

Another example lame skills of bbq...keke...who again?

Size of saugage: (from left)Kembang, VERY kembang, almost Original size

Ice cream~ Yummy yummy..but chee shin said both of us r trying to act young coz we scoop the ice cream in a con instead of bowls. watever, mayb he just jealous tat both of us r younger than him..keke

when we finish eating...but seem very few from tis photo

Cat tat keep on watching us eat...so i throw it vegetable but it dun wan to eat. Mayb it doesn't know the importance of fibers n vitamin C...keke

actually towards the end, we were forcing ourselves to swallow instead of enjoying the food...becoz of tis sign...

Tat day we have also eaten fruits, sushi, seafoods, bak gua, many kinds of fish balls, beefs, chickens, agar-agar..some also dunno wat's tat...as long as can b eaten...

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Yesterday, although it's raining, i went to talipon again with Kheng n Sein again. But too bad, my hp is low battery, cannot take pictures...nvm...go there again next time. Actually going there during raining also not bad coz wont feel hot when bbq ^.^

The price of an adult is RM21.80, together with Chinese tea, so is RM23.10 per person.

Kiki, after seeing tis, wan to eat or not? wohoho....

When checking mails...

finally, i begin to check my mail, then only i realize my frens r keeping on sending funny or meaningful mails for me, just tat i'm too lazy to open them, hehe. From now on, i will TRY my best to check mails la...keke

The power of editting pictures...

i seriously need someone to teach me how to use photoshop edi la...who can teach me?

Amazing photo of a rock found in Birmania ocean(dunno where is it)

When look from left....

top view...dunno real or not...not so believe it actually

When we were small....

the food that once i liked them so much...still remember always went to the shop opposite to buy these...although the shop is still there now, long time din stepped into it d, but it's still the "paradise" of the kids

the cartoons tat i watched...hehe..i'm still watching some of them now. last time when watching din even know wat's the title, now only remember the looks of the characters

things tat i played during free time with frens or family. hehe, tis is where i learn to "throw aeroplane" when i grow up. we also made our own kites n fly too on the field in front of the house ^.^

some other things that played. Forget how to fold the thing (shown in last row last column) lo. Most of them disappear edi, but the 3 sets of cards r still in my house, hehe. Used to play guli with family, but pity the young generation now, adults will take away when the children play guli coz scare they will swallow them, too bad

Mario~ I have tis game in my laptop now but cant even pass through level 1, and claiming tat the game cant be saved, haha

The pencil case must have many layers, dunno y, mayb feel more yeng gut, hehe. Have collection of erasers too (but with the cartoons on it instead of the flags), n i only remembers i once owned the grape n orange shape erasers.

tis email really make me think of my childhood and the school time, miss the days when whole day just playing n playing..although sometimes will quarrel with siblings (due to insufficient supply of toys) n scolded or caned by family...kaka..Think of the days bluffing together with sisters until quarrel with relatives when they visited our house during cny too..haha

homesick-ing~ T.T

Free Soya Bean Drink

today really sui enough
the physio test just now is so KNS
having headache during the exam somemore
so should i mourn for the result?
thought can get a few "consolations" from SA lobby after the test
but then i went there tooo late
no more free Ribena n chocolate drinks for me, T.T
only manage to get 2 magazines, dunno wat free sample of oxy, n a soya bean drink
yeah....at 1st i thought at least i get a free soya drinks...still not tat sui
but then when i was waiting for the bus
i just realize i dun have any opener to open the bottle
when watching series also cant really enjoy coz tis bottle is just beside the computer
i can watch it but cannot drink it! urgh!
SUI ar!!!! haiz

any suggestions on how to open it?

P/S: luckily tonight went to eat ho liao~ but too ho liao too full, cannot move too much now, scare will vomit >.<
will be uploaded bout it when i get the photos...

衰女包？

do i look like 衰女包？
today got 1 person said i'm a 衰女包
n got 2 ppl totally agree with tat

these 3 ppl, know u all since foundation....
one field fren....so honest to me.....
thanks Yong yong for saying tat in front of me....
thanks Adrian for giving me some face, INDIRECTLY shooting me by calling me 包女衰
thanks Min-Zhin for praising yong yong "1st time know tat she's so good at judging ppl"

ok la, actually i din deny tat i'm not a good girl in my family....
but still is the best among the family....kekeke
n foundation TE2 got 24 ppl, only 3 ppl saying tat
somemore only got ppl say me 衰女包
no ppl say me 败家女，wakaka
so I'm still proud of who I am.......keke

Movie~

The class ends very early today, so it's MOVIE time~
Actually tmr class will end earlier, but i have somethings to do after the class.
Thanks binatang liar n yongyong for willing to b crazy with me coz tmr is 8am will b a lab test...

The movie we watch today is WALL.E

lol, i din know wat's the movie about n i dun even know tat is an animation til i was at the entrance of cinema

The movie begins with "Presto" n a SUPER-CUTE bunny which is not related to Wall.E
We r so blur y it starts with tat...but watever....i like the bunny sooooo much

the bunny is just sooooo cute! love it

There were very few conversation throughout the whole animation other than "Wall.E", "Eva", "direction" n some conversation between human
n it's kinda boring for the 1st 30 minutes (mayb i was too tired to enjoy the movie)
but believe me, u can laugh ur head off after tat until the animation finished
n the movie is kinda touching at the end....
so in conclusion, it's nice to watch!

But today, we nearly miss the movie n do a very embarrassing thing...
Case 1:
We suppose to get down the bus at the chaokit monorail station since we're in a rush...
But 4 of us r so blur n dreaming on the bus
I saw the bus passed by the chao kit monorail station
Then i was like "eh...how come tis is so familiar 1?"
then.....
me: 文采，我们不是要下chaokit的咩？
[i should say tis earlier when the bus IS at the station, not AFTER the station]
vc: 是咯，我就奇怪做么你们不下车
[then y u din ask us earlier? =.=]
yy: 刚才我有按铃的
[geng, u pressed the bell but u din get down the bus? =.=""""]
we're still discussing there how we dream..how we gonna late for the movie...how we watch the bus passed by...n finally....
piang: 就现在下车走回去啦
[finally, we have a constructive suggestion...lol]

Case 2:
After paying for the popcorn at the counter, vc only took her popcorn away. yongyong n me thought voonchai or piang helped us to take our popcorn, then we straigthly walked away. I saw the salesgirls r in shock...then we only realized we haven take our food AFTER PAYING. I walked back to take. Then the salegirls called us again and said we haven take the free small popcorn...so i walk back to take again...then, i realized tat we haven take the straws....so i walked back again..swt...so embarrassing...

So, tat's is wat will happen when blur meets blur...all blur together...lol

N i will b a "tour guide" of someone soon....
Well, i hope i wont b tat blur again..
but FOC...wrong direction also nvm de...
after bringing the wrong direction, then act very cool to settle it...
tis can show my talent somemore...wakaka

one of my best frens is leaving to US in 4 days...dun miss me ya...but i know u will..keke

P/S: The lab test is without any scopes, GOD BLESS US.... T.T

GOOD thing to share

hello everybody
found out an interesting website
u can hear ppl singing n comment on their singing
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY
U CAN SING there too
of coz, if ur singing is a bit sorry
others can just throw "shit" to u
but so wat? they dunno u u dunno them
u can throw shit back to them, lol

http://meetoto.goplayplay.com/v2/

hope u will enjoy it~

Free Yakult Drinks

Two days ago, Hann suddenly put a yakult drink on my table, and she said:"Yong yong请你喝的 (Yong yong treat u drink 1) [yala, hann tis fellow where got so good give me free drinks, keke]". I have known yong yong since foundation, n tis is the 1st time she treat me a drink, I was touched n nearly cried edi (ehem, haha).

Tis is the yakult drink tat yong yong gave me

But soon, my mood to drink the yakult is affected due to the "lecture" given by "part-time" yakult representative -- Hann (tat time she was just back from visiting and attending the lecture "yakultology" from the factory).

Tis is the conversation between hann, vien n me.
vien: walao, 酱小罐罢了
(walao, the bottle is too small la)
ting: 是咯，才85ml，vitagen都有125ml
(yalo, only 85ml, vitagen also got 125ml)
hann: 你们不可以酱算的，你们要算你们喝了多少只bacteria
(u two cannot count like tat, should count how many bacteria u have drunk)
ting: 都看不到里面有几只bacteria，也不知道他们放什么bacteria
(cannot know how many bacteria r inside la, also dunno wat's the bacteria inside)
hann: 不知道，那个人没有讲，等下是E.coli在里面，哈哈　
(dunno, tat person also din say, mayb is E.coli inside, haha)

At tis moment, vien opened the drinks.
hann: 你知道怎样开吗？吸水管要向下推的，而且要用拇指推的知道吗？
(u know how to open it? the straw must be pushed downwards using thumb u know?)
[*speechless* i dunno n dun wish to know]
ting: 不会太大力然后弄掉吸水管的咩？
(wont the straw fall onto ground if push too hard?)
hann: 不会的，用多大力都不会掉的
(wont fall 1, no matter how hard u push)
[i see, so magic]

vien drank til half n put on the table.
hann: 还有啊，一定要一次过喝完。不可以酱放在桌子，等下有空气的bacteria进到里面去，就喝了没有意思了。
(somemore, u must one shot drink finish 1, cannot left on the table like tat, later got bacteria from atmosphere enter into it, then the healthy drink become meaningless edi)
vien: 炸到，酱快喝完都好像没有喝到什么
(swt, drink so fast seem like drink nothing 1)
hann: 都讲是看你喝了多少bacteria了咯
(told u d, it's see how many bacteria u have drunk)
[got so many rules, i cannot enjoy the drinks then also meaningless after drinking la =.=]

Then i also opened the drink n observing the can.
ting: eh, 这个吸水管几时变到酱长的？
(eh, how come the straw become so long 1?)
vien: 炸到，你一推出来它就是酱的 (swt, it's like tat once u pushed it out)
ting: eh，原来我们喝的是30 billion life Lactobacillus嘞。Life的嘞
(eh, i finally realize wat we drank is 30 billion life Lactobacillus leh, life 1 wo)
vien: *speechless* then?
[haha, i know i'm A BIT 38, n i also dunno wat is so good about Lactobacillus in our body, as long as it's not E.coli, lol]

see, must push the straw downwards using thumb =.=

the extended straw. the white colour part is the ori length tat we saw

The yakultology lecture is 30 minutes long in the factory according to my frens, n i used 30 seconds to finish the drinks, lol. I only have one thought after drinking tat "HUH, finish liao ar?" haha. anyway, thanks yong yong o~ can i have another 1? keke

i'm so touched by yong yong. n i know someone will be coming back to malaysia by the end of tis year. will i get souvenir from her? keke~

无聊记事 ~bored~

哈哈，最近好像有资格进青山了，有点神经错乱，做的事有点笨更是傻，哈哈。由于丽婷的msn挂了，我的手机倾家荡产了，我们就用了一些原始的科技谈天，那就是

*haha, i purposely translate into english for my dear dear housemate FOONG KHENG, but some translation really sounds weird due to direct translation n my no-standard english level, lol*

Recently, i think i'm eligible to enter tanjung rambutan edi. Haha, normal ppl wont do these kind of things i think, coz some of them really sound childish and stupid. Yeah, streamyx n maxis memang boleh. Lay theng can't sign in her msn n my hp credit is "vacuumed", but we r so desparate to chat with each other, and tis is wat we did!

没错，我们就是这样谈天。这还是我第一次酱勤劳check inbox，两个email inbox累积的还真不少，哈哈。下次msn在有问题，还可以考虑这样聊天
haha, yeah, we chat using email! I think tis is the 1st time i'm so hardworking to check my mail (if u can see, the unread mails r 600+, i still have another email same conditions too, haha). It's really a good method to chat if u encounter problems in ur msn next time, worth to try!

正当每一个人忙着k biochem时，我还在享受在you tube看周杰伦的mv，简直好看又好听！尤其是“搁浅”和“最长的电影”，歌好听，mv又超感人的。此外，我竟然想要去打pool。那时的我，十课里才读了三课，人家差不多读完了都还没说要去玩，哈哈。好了，所以今天的考试我该为它立碑哀悼了吧！本人亦不敢期望什么，只希望能拿超过一半的分数吧。50/100，要求不会很高吧！
While everyone else is busy doing their revision for biochem, i'm still relaxing watching jay's mv in the youtube! haha, he's really my god, his songs n mv r just too nice!!! Besides, i suggested to go to play pool although i just read 3 chapters out of 10 chapters. So, tis is the consequence, i dunno how to do for the test today. I dun expect to do well in tat paper, but hope to get at least 50/100, can i? >.<

看着两只家伙，就算世界第一也无法把球送进洞吧！
~Jefferey and Greg~Hmm, look like their hands, do u think the ball can enter into hole?

你做初一，我做十五，球进到算你厉害！哈哈！
Keke, u think only u two can do tat? Try to hit the ball into the hole if u're pro enough, keke~

哈哈，好像很pro的样子
Do i look pro? lol

打完pool，是时候温习功课了，温习到凌晨三点多还真有点闷了，但精神过度不能睡。自恋的我就拿起手机玩自拍。但光线不足，拍的全部都很暗，拍得有点纳闷，竟然突然想起，这时是农历七月。很自然的，我就拿手机拍摄屋里的各角落，看是否派到一些不该派到的东西。看太多戏的后果就是酱，真的是傻了！当时太大胆，现在想起才怕，还好没事发生。
After playing pool, tis is the time to get serious by burning mignight oil. At 3am sth, i'm still can b very crazy n high to self take pictures. too bad, my camera-phone is not good quality enough to take pictures at night, n all the pictures r just too dark which make me a bit no mood to take pictures edi, hehe. Then, an crazy idea suddenly came accross my mind, since now is the july in the lunar calendar, i took the pictures of every corner of the house, to test whether i will see "sth which shoudn't b seen". Tat time i'm just too brave, or mayb can say "din use brain to think", n luckily nth happen tat time, otherwise i really cant imagine the consequences.

光线不足整张照片都很暗，唉！这个还是增加了brightness。哈哈，还好没看到一些“莫名其妙”的现象！（花了rm25剪头发，但好像没什么变化酱，显！）
Tis picture is taken at 3am sth, it's just too dark! n tis picture is actually editted by increasing the brightness edi. Luckily din see anything "strange" in this picture, haha (Wasted rm25 to cut my hair, but now seem like not much different T.T)

但最近好像不止我自恋，还有比我更自恋的人，竟然mms我她自拍的照片，还加了星星，声称自己是superstar！无药可救了，唉！
but recently not only i'm acting "zi lian", there's another one person more "zi lian" than me by sending her self taken picture using mms to me, lol. She claims herself a "superstar" and adds stars around her, swt

难道这位家伙在青山度过study week？
Mayb tis fellow gonna spend her study week in tanjung rambutan

最近的生活太忙碌，不无聊消遣一下还真迟早疯掉！接下三个星期甚至有五个考试，全部都需要背的。唉，我真的想去整容增大头来增大brain capacity去吞完全部notes！还有reportS呢，天！人家说，sem的尾声很闲的，但难道坐着k书算是一种“闲”？
Haiz, really tired of the busy life without resting, n the only entertainment tat i can do is acting crazy, keke. The following 3 weeks r just "too nice" coz 5 tests r coming, n the only preparation for the tests is MEMORIZING. Tis is wat bio ppl always do rite? haiz, i hate memorizing! i think i should go for surgery to expand the head size to increase the brain capacity! Not only tests, i also have reportS to write! Ppl say we will b very free when approaching the end of the sem, hhmm, mayb they think tat sitting n studying is very "free" instead =.=

好无聊

天气 热死
家里 静死
坐到 僵死
头痛 痛死
头脑 暴死
读书 闷死
背书 烦死
拼命 拼死
迟早 疯死
无聊 透死
通宵 累死
被书 压死
被notes 气死
问题 多死
考试 怕死
幻想 怎死
交卷 哭死
成绩 吓死
怎样 都死
悲哀 到死

Lazy-bone

i know i shoudn't be here blogging in this moment coz i still have many lecture notes ahead waiting for me. i'm here becoz i really not in the mood to study now, hehe.

biotech test is on tuesday, but studying the messy and thick notes is really annoying. yeah, i din deny tat's the 1st time i flip the notes. (hehe, my style ma, no exam no flipping the notes). tat's y from week 1 until now, i only realize some of the words r missing n not clear. I have to spend some times to "fill in the blanks" or "analyzing the words" or "completing sentences" or even "creating ending for the story".

Pecky suggests me to study smart. Haha, obviously i'm not the smart person n dunno how to study smart. these thick notes already r the chapters' summary, lol. (hehe, feel proud or not, i think of u when writing tis blog)

Haiz, I really have to change my laziness n last-minutes style. (haha, actually i have said about tis 2 years ago, n here i m, saying the same thing again). there's still many things i left for tomorrow. *sob*

Gotta continue exploring the notes although not in the mood, T.T

唉

若能重新再来，或许我不能再这样天真
是学到了，但未免一切太迟无法挽救
虽说凡是尽量就好就没后悔
毕竟有些事失败了就是失败了
并不是每一次都弥补的机会
若埋怨他人导致自己失败更让自己觉得羞耻
无论什么借口，
只因自己错在想法太简单不够现实
亦无法当机立断坚决表明立场
我忘了让人一步只让别人踩上几步
并不是每一个人都可以给他们的100% 或帮助你
并不是每一个决定都可以得到大家的认同
并不是每一个人可以坦然承认自己的错误
以为自己一定可以搞定
结果自己搞成一团糟
有时白费的努力很悲哀
毕竟他人要的只是有成果的成绩
做得成功是应该，做的失败是错误
曾经以为不放弃就可以有希望
但同时也知不要期望什么就不会失望
但有时必须撑下去
而且撑得很累还是必须继续撑下去
因为一放弃就一点希望都没有
自己失败就好了，
还连累别人更是失败！
明知唉声叹气亦无补于事
但还是忍不住要唉！

number 1

hm, tis is the 1st time i blog in english tis year
saturday 9am is the management midterm
the time now is 8.41pm of 17/7
n now i 'm studying
lecture note of week 1
chapter 1
page 1
slide 1
line 1
1st word
n tis is also the 1st time i flip the photostated textbook
the notes and the book r very new and clean
ie. tis is the 1st time i touch the notes (hehe, so proud of myself)
i need a magnifying glass to analyze the "ant-size" words
weird, from week 1 until now
tis is the 1st time i realize the words in the notes r too small...lol

Save me from the soporific notes & wish me luck~

好忙~

最近好忙
这头交了report考完试
那头又有report有考试
偶尔有assignment的插曲
亦有society的事物
整天忙到连讲话谈天都懒
周公来敲我的门我都无法应门
唉，如果我能“毫无损伤”的熬到final exam过后
真的已经谢天谢地了
原本未来的3个月假期是轻松到超级闷超级无聊的
如今在假期里若能有一天是完全休息的话我也要酬神了
如此喘不过气的生活
真的不知该臭骂还是感谢
忙不完的的确很累
但至少这样的生活才过得充实
至少，没闲暇给忧郁控制我吧！
希望如此啦 >.<

废

没目的没目标
雾弥漫前路亦笼罩自己
是何时？
为前途顾虑？
是何时？
不能面对自己的笑容？
最近赫然发觉
自己不再是懒
而是失去动力劲力
好想去走走玩玩
好想逃离现实，可以吗？
这身不由己的生命还有什么意义？
虽知唯有等才有机会找到答案
但脑中忽然闪过
若生命只剩一小时，我要做些什么？
或许我会选择与家人朋友度过
亦或许我会选择单独宁静度过
我至今生命的故事
是置身汪洋中的一个孤岛
偶尔有疲惫的海鸥停息
养足精神了就展翼
只留下逐渐被海侵蚀的脚印
偶尔也有海啸侵袭
来得快去得更快
淹没了整岛后海水却依然平静
一人开始的故事也该一人结束吧
只是我怕我会像“死亡笔记”里的L
为自己安排了安详的死亡后
却又在死亡前的一瞬间想再多活一些
我会吗？会后悔吗？
没错，是害怕后悔
所以至今撑着

明知...偏

明知摊开双手是自由的开始
偏终日紧握拳头牢牢牵住
明知仰望天空是希望的曙光
偏总爱体会地上的尖石
明知心如止水是快乐的必要
偏心却挂念着涟漪
明知起伏不定是生命的规律
偏伤痕累累地怕再受伤害
明知坦然面对是对己的宽容
偏爱活在幻想的虚拟世界

发炎

偶尔温习着历史
然仍得不到教训
不断的赌注衬托着悲哀
掩埋了希望
原以为疤痕已复原了
但原来它不曾止血
血海覆盖了眼淹没了心
过客这俩字似千斤重担不起
命运的路太坎坷崎岖
期望着主宰
奈何无能为力
因为触不到的竟是自己
两个灵魂两个面具寄居体内
各不相干却融在一体
自我的光芒已逐渐暗淡
无谓地反抗
留下发炎的疤痕

低落

今日的情绪好低落
面对着功课压力
面对着自己的考验
好恨自己的面具
伪装得好累
为何乐观只能现在他人面前？
怎么单独时尽是悲观？
突起的邪念更吓了自己
掩饰困难，表露亦不易
快疯了
听着悲歌再次想哭
想尝试换轻松的歌
但实在听不下去
毕竟自己还是适合悲歌
尝试改变亦不过太无谓

蠢

回首过去
才觉当日的自己多么愚蠢
自己的人生似天开的玩笑
当决定忘却过去向前看时
天总爱时不时提醒我过去
庆幸自己经得起考验
也庆幸因为不少玩笑
所以今日才不想再蠢下去

好绝望

失败的滋味
原来是如此
突觉什么都没意思
家人的安慰渗了不少失望
留下的泪包含了不少绝望
若蒸发了泪亦能消了愁
我愿流下泪至眼干
但不能
泪蒸发了却留下悲伤
听着悲伤的歌再次触动眼泪
这一次是多么难掩饰啊！
此事做什么都无心情
就只想一人冷静
细数悲伤的每一份每一秒

犹豫

惊讶
为何犹豫
原来
事实需要勇气承认
曾经提醒着珍惜
所以至今否认
奈何
为何需要提醒才会珍惜？
毕竟
犹豫时答案已呼之而出

放纵 | 严谨

读了一篇好有意思的文章
好得可以让你沉思检讨人生
没错
为了生活
人成了时间金钱的奴隶
忙亦盲
偶尔想放纵
放纵的开始是享受
奈何
放纵的途中是自责
放纵的最后是严谨
现实总要面对
最怕严谨抹黑了青春
到头来还未尝过年轻气息就白了头发
谁愿一生只呈暗淡颜色？
谁亦不想七彩缤纷衬托着人生？
只是
放纵得太彻底
轻松久了反觉得沉重
太过平静的日子反觉生活没意思
没了伤痛就不会再珍惜快乐
放纵可是享受、亦可是痛苦
放纵得不够尽
只有被罪恶感渐渐吞噬
此后陷入一番自责与挣扎
到头来勉强自己严谨地面对现实
放纵可是解脱、亦可是堕落
严谨渴望放纵、放纵变得严谨
最近周旋于严谨和放纵
心情又如变幻莫测的天气
若想展翼，那为何还恋地？

明知故犯

纵然是天地不容
我无法阻止
尝试但需要时间
就看上天如何安排
其实并非抗拒
只是并未能放在第一位
亦未能在第一时间想到
我恨自私的自己
什么都以“我”为中心
憧憬的未来只有我和他
但如今我会顾虑到
我会尽量
不要求原谅
我知我错

生物科技和我

直到今天
我才发觉我是多么的潇洒
为何？
当我要申请industrial training时
我赫然发觉我竟然不知什么是biotech
都说不知什么了
更不知要申请什么有关联的
回想以前
为何选择这一条路
当初选择bio时因为被人吓了physic难读
而当时jpa生物科的只有医生、药剂、生物科技
本人没这么大的理想亦没有往哪方面发展的决定
所以选上了自以为“三科中最容易、包山包海的科系”
既然它包山包海，先不想前途
当时的决定：你叫我读什么就读什么，毕业才打算，后悔才打算
哈哈！
好了，原来生命没有take 2
这一条路只继续带领我走到一个又一个岔路
后悔的感觉是有，
但能回头吗？不能！
所以，逆来顺受，挑战自己的极限
如此抱着得过且过的心态慢慢消磨时间
是好没意思，但因没苛求，所以不会绝望
但申请industrial training
总得知道什么是biotech
今天的我
终于打开了wikipedia
打了“biotechnology”这个字
哈哈
此时此刻的我
终于略略得明白了biotech
好在它够广，哈哈，这个不适合还有其他
真的好佩服自己
没有想好自己的前途就选了biotech
不明白biotech也毅然选择这条路
还等到此时此刻才尝试明白
明白了也不知自己要往哪方面
甚至在wikipedia寻找答案
哈哈，wikipedia万岁！

人生

有时人生好讽刺
小时渴望长大
大时怀念童年
忙时渴望休息
闲了无事找事
求学渴望毕业
毕业怀念母校
孤独渴望有伴
喧闹却想宁静
拥有不会珍惜
失去只能哀悼
开心的日子有如烟花
叹息的日子有如海浪
读了这么多书
熬夜却赔了健康
没理想的依然没理想的活着
有理想的却出师未捷身先死
想享受无钱享受
所以情愿败在金钱下
等赚了钱想享受
此钱却用来保健医病
看过医生帮人无数
自己依然死于疾病
看过科学家研究病毒
自己却被病毒折磨
人就是这么渺小
还说什么人是万物之灵？
还说什么人能主宰一切？

疑问

为了将来
只能撑下去
将来似太遥远
亦不知撑下去对将来有何帮助
只是不撑下去就一点希望也无
发生的必有原因
但原因究竟是什么
只怕还未找到原因人早已崩溃
“别以为世上只有对与错；
许多事的答案都有好多；
所以我们永远有路可走。”
说倒是容易
做却难如登天
明知现在说对与错太早了
明知现在后悔亦无补于事
但为一个未知数勉强自己会好过吗？
放弃，会更好过吗？

原点

面对挫折
我尝试了乐观
结果成了逃避现实
活在自己的幻想里
也尝试了自慰
结果自慰成了自欺
重复的忧郁是自欺的安慰奖
我尝试若无其事地生活
只是连连的梦正提醒着我
梦后清醒的感觉好辛苦
压力显然已逼得我透不过气
暂时的失忆只让缺了片的记忆
抹黑寻找迷失的拼图
两年的光阴我尝试握紧
我却眼睁睁看着它们流出手指间
这些年的教训已让我伤痕累累
但我却纵容我一再犯错
如今在
不同的地方
不同的时间
却问了一个同样的问题
我要的是什么？

多余

对不对这问题好多余
因为即使错了
也无法回头重新选择

能不能这问题好多余
因为即使不能
答案也只有一定要能

如此无从选择的生活
不过像个玩偶
何时才可以得到解脱？

兜圈子

漠视自己的感受
忽略自己的思想
抛下自己的欲望
忘了不解的问题
还以为
只要这样走下去会看到出路
原来不是
兜了一大圈
最终我还是在原地寻找出路
忙碌是我支持至今的支柱
只是夜深时脑细胞却赫然活跃
害怕曾经的忧郁
选择逃避是理所当然
所以这一次在同一个地方
我仍然会选择失忆地走下去
默默等待历史再重演的那天

堕落言

最近好懒
滥玩滥赌
学会了一两手的麻将
骗吃骗吃靠运气赢
明明读书读到想睡了
但打麻将打通宵？芝麻小事！
玩过一次的撞球
现在？迷上了它！
一开始被人拉去玩时还说打半小时够了
结果，半小时变成两小时！
之后，还能主动约人打撞球，不错！
还有，一天之内看三部戏
全都整场像被点了笑穴笑到爆
虽然还是破不了记录看四部
以现在紧要关头抽空看三部算不错了
今年的电影都像很不错
看了许多预告片都觉得很不错勒
唉，爽是爽
但想到现实就好怕
怎么就只有玩的推动力？
读书的推动力呢？去了哪里？
这个学期课业表现很差
终于知道什么才是怕
但怕了怎么没有行动？
有点“心有余而力不足”，自甘堕落！

哀悼

怎么我需要再向其他人撒谎？
问心无愧的是我
怎么还需要顾及你们的名声？
是我笨，不够精不够狠
事情过了我不想再去算
说了也无补于事
但别一而再，再而三挑战我的耐性
如今的我们只不过是陌生人
怎么了解会让我们的友情步上绝路？
当初是我眼瞎
了解了才发觉我们处于不同的世界
不堪一击的友情
值得叹息吗？
对不起
我还是觉得
我叹息是因为我太瞎太蠢了

灰

真假对错若能分明多好
偏偏现实却永远徘徊在边境
生活毕竟不是个棋盘般黑白分明
卸下面具好吗？
虚伪远比争吵更恶
口不可能永远封着
忽略到最后是碍眼
白痴不可能当一世
之前还替你担心过
原来蠢到最后的人是我

想与说

有好多事不明白
亦不想懂
无暇再管它们了
有一些事知道了
该说出吗？
还是让时间证明？
就当我想太多了
真的无力再想再管了
所以我选择当个白痴
也选择了顺其自然

失忆

二月过了
四年一次的二十九日要再等四年
但时间呢？
过了就过了
并不是说过了还可以再等
时间的流逝无法控制
把握如今拥有的时间尽量享受
这道理我也懂
我也想尽量享受
但现实不允许我这么做
学业、人际
这两样都已把我搞得人不像人
自己的思想更是折磨
忘记自己的感觉
忘记了喜怒哀乐
忘记了许多回忆
忘记了生活节奏
忘记了如何记得
忘记了如何面对
什么事都想忘记
究竟我想在逃避什么？
怎么我自己也不知？

错

绝望了
放弃了
好想逃避
好想改变
但能吗？
这条路就只能一直走下去
回头路早就被封了
在此哀悼也只是个弱者所为
我不介意当个弱者
只不想当个骗自己的骗子
错误的证据己逐渐明显
我的决定错了吗？

友情的承诺

琪，读了你的部落后好有感触
回想起了好多往事
学校、旅行、分享心事
我笑了
但过后那笑变得好苦涩
它们都没被遗忘
只是被遗弃
忙碌并不是遗弃的借口
其实那份关心从未改变过
只是表达的方法变了
或许有些人亦无须那份关心
有些友情好脆弱
轻易的被距离和时间击败
毕业后就消失得无影无踪
却有些真实的友情
距离与时间不是问题
毕业后反而更为相熟
谢谢你们一直陪伴着我
我好感激
也希望我们的友谊能一直延续下去
我们说过要再相聚再一起旅行
我希望那不是任性
对不起，我无法承诺
昔日彼此曾许下承诺说友谊永固
但做到的有几个？
自此我给不起诺言
因为当日的诺言就是心痛的根源
但我还是选择了相信

不一样的新年

今天彻底被压力征服
原来疯癫未能解压
好辛苦
太多的东西还没做也不会做
怎么开学与放假有这么大的差别
忙也罢了
怎么一些芝麻问题还时不时出现？
不想去想但偏偏浮现在脑
老天，别玩了好吗？
我能再失忆多久？
我还能再顶多久？
别说我一定能
我听得腻了
有时能的背后是空心的
新年？人日？还像话吗？

孤僻

才发觉
如今的我对你们
好自私、无情
一盘散沙
至少该庆幸
我们都还在同一个盘上吧
只是盘都好想快裂了
我们就像个横放的沙漏
同一个地方存着两个世界
太过绝望只换来绝情
我对不起的
是因为不在乎

可以吗？

可以不做功课吗？永远忙不完得好累
可以不用读书吗？太难明白得恐惧
可以让我休息吗？我只想仔细想自己要的是什么
可以别再演戏吗？掉泪是如此难堪吗
可以别再斗了吗？好厌倦好恶心
可以别再乱想吗？有时自己的思想好折磨
可以说出真话吗？好多话都好想说却无法开口
可以让我任性吗？怎么我无法控制我的生活
可以选择逃避吗？现实残酷得我无法面对
可以吗？